Ants in my pants

It's the time of year again when the "crazy" takes over my brain and I find myself bored. No, technically I'm not 'bored', but find myself uninspired. So when I can't shake the crazies anymore I start searching the Internet. For houses. Moving is always the answer isn't it? Nothing like packing up your life, finding a "new" and "exciting" place to take up residence for a while.

I wonder where this comes from. I lived in one place for 21 years. Then we moved to Utah. And it's been a yearly cycle since then. I can't stay put for very long before I want to do something else. I started a random series of posts about traveling somewhere diff every week...here and here. And I watch HGTV religiously. More than desperate housewives if you can believe that! Point being...I have something in me that can't. sit .still.

This past Friday we went and looked at a house that a friend of Matt's is moving out of. I had built up so much anticipation about this being the house because it was big and had land. Well, the layout sucked and Matt really didn't want the hour+ commute every day. Back to the internet. In the smart part of my head i know it is smarter to stay where we are. The rent is good and we are able to pay down other debts we have. But I'm stir crazy and all of my other hobbies just seem so....boring.

I'll be grateful when the weather gets a little better, and I can find healthier outlets than sitting and daydreaming about going to Puerto Rico, or Ireland and ALL that would be involved in that trip;)

So friends, how do you spend your mid winter days?

blue razberry jell-o

So I've had three kids. Which means my body has been through three traumatic experiences. I'm also six years older from the first one. All this adds up to the number one reason I shouldn't go clothes shopping.

My sweet sister offered to watch our kids so the hubs and I could go out on a date. She said we were going to go shopping for this date. (blog post on that soon to follow) Well, since I haven't been to a normal store in a while I thought "sure! why the heck not". -chuckle- I picked her up at her dorm and we went to the mall. More specifically to her favorite store, Forever 21. Now before you all start rolling your eyes and thinking "well what do you expect shopping at a 'teeny bopper' store!?", they have more adult sizes there also.

Let me tell you what I learned:

1. bringing snacks is a good idea only when they don't leave a trail as to where you have been

2. I'm not sure skinny jeans are made for anyone: a)under 6 feet tall or b) don't have legs that take up more than half of your body

3. someone needs to make a better mirror for dressing rooms

4. I need to exercise

Needless to say I left the store feeling horrible about myself and deciding that I was only eating salad at dinner. And nothing but celery from here on out. Too top it off I was at church yesterday and I had asked a friend if there were any younger girls that I could get Sibil to meet so she could make some friends. Well the very cute and skinny friend that she introduced me to asked if I was the 18 year old. I smiled thinking about the sweet compliment and said "no, I wish" to which she replied, "oh well I didn't know sometimes people look older than they are".

*chirp*

*chirp*

It's time to get the ball on the roll friends. I'm not going to be the jiggling jell-o Mom anymore.

Really Irene...

So in the land of nod there was a hurricane scaring everyone out of their panties.

Which got me thinking...

The thing that makes me chuckle most, are people rushing to the store to stock up on things that they should already have. 

I read a news piece the other day about our governor calling for people to be more prepared because, well, Alaska is known for it's hard winters and earthquakes. As I was reading the comments there was a fair amount of ridicule towards this leader. They compared him to other "failed" leadership. Now I read that and thought...yah, you are right Mr. Governor. I need to be getting my house in order. I need to be getting my food storage built up. I need to be building a nest egg while getting out of debt.  

So where do you fall? Are you the people on the land telling Noah he's a fool for preparing for the flood? Now I'm certainly not saying my governor is a prophet, but inspired, definitely. I'm not however falling into the 'end of the world in 2012' club. I don't think it will be that soon. But do I think it's going to get worse? Absolutely. Which makes preparation such a key element. Which also reminds me that we need a gun. Or two. I also need to learn how to use one. Believe me, when it does get worse you can bet your kiester that I won't be sharing and I won't let it be stolen. Ok, I might share. Maybe. You could knock three times and ask. No promises though!

So will you be prepared when the world goes to pot?

Did you know?

Things I am

...perfectionist

...stubborn

...creative

...talented

Things I am not

...patient

...skinny

...fit

...sloppy

Things I love

...my husband

...my children

...my camera

...thunderstorms

Things I do not love

...wet socks

...wet peanut butter

...ticks

...hypocrites

Things I like to eat

...butterfinger icecream

...fries

...cereal

...Bajios

Things I do not like to eat

...onions

...cottage cheese

...salmon

...miracle whip

Things I have

...the perfect man

...an iMac

...three kids to keep me young

...an obsession with fries

Things I still want

...to be debt free

...to be a successful photographer

...to be a better Mother

...to be a better me

Things I want to do tomorrow

...learn a lot at my photo workshop

...take some great pictures

...not yell at my kids

...talk to my hubs

Things I want to do in a year

...lose 20 lbs

...learn to prioritize better

...go to school

...launch my photography company

Things I wished for and received

...a new home

...a good school for my son

...CS5

...to be closer as a family

Things I keep wishing for

...patience

...patience

...patience

...a nanny

Blogland etiquette...

I've been thinking a lot about my etiquette here. It's not a whole slew of things, but one in particular.

I love getting comments and sometimes there are some that deserve some sort of recognition. I have seen other bloggers write back with an "@ so and so" but I find myself wondering if that's the best way? I would totally do that but when I leave a comment on someone's blog I rarely, if ever go back and see if they wrote back to me.

So what's a girl to do. I don't want my buddies from other blogs thinking I'm snooty and can't possibly be bothered with what they say! And I certainly don't want them to think I have forgotten about them when I get all famous and stuff;) Of course I'm slight disillusioned here!

So, help me out here readers!

Vanity

"I'm sorry my house is such a mess".

Ever said that? I thought about this statement last night and the circumstances it gets said in. There's the time that you really are surprised when people come over and you haven't had a free moment in your day to take a shower, none the less, pick up the cheerios that are sticking to the table or strewn all over the floor. So you apologize for your messy house and make sure that your unexpected visitor is completely aware that there is a valid reason for it.

Then there's the other reason.

Knowing you are having visitor(s) over and making sure all the clutter is away. Getting on your hands and knees to try and find Every. Last.Crumb. Shoving things into closets and closing the doors lest anyone see in them. Dishes out of the sink and washed and put away. Then when they get to your home...saying "sorry my house is such a mess", knowing full well it isn't. Is this all in hopes that you show your friends that you live this perfect life? That they should be ashamed of their own homes because you think your spotless home is a mess? Or because all you've got in life is your clean home. So when it is clean after tornadoes of children all day you just want to pretend that it isn't as perfect as you'd like it to be?

Or do you not apologize at all?

Fabulous

Oh my goodness! Yesterday was by far the best birthday I've had in my adult life. Wait, who am I kidding....best birthday ever :) Even though the day was filled with kids that made it their mission to be extra demanding, extra cranky, extra psychotic, all was made right in the world the moment Matt and I left to go out. I'm talking the second the door closed I felt like a MILLION bucks!  

*I love them dearly but I needed to get out with my husband*

So we went. I think he had planned for us to go to dinner and a movie but I told him I wasn't really wanting to do the movie bit. I mean...I'm pretty stuck inside all the time so why choose to do that:) So we just went to dinner. Restaurant of choice? Glacier Brew House.

It. Was. Amazing.

We got an appetizer of salsa and chips and the salsa was fresh and delicious. Seriously....we tanked it. I should have cared but I didn't! For the main course I had the Chicken Rigatoni and Matt had the Bay Shrimp and Smoked King Salmon Caesar Salad. We enjoyed our meals very much. Mine was made with a garlic butter...and I could feel the oil on my lips...that's how buttery it was...lol. There was also no way I wasn't going to get dessert either! We didn't get a birthday cake.(which is good because then you don't have to figure out what you are going to do with the 3/4 of it that's left after the fact) Friends I'd like you to meet:

Mr. Original peanut butter pie

Mr. OPBP, meet my friends. I know if they got to taste you they would love you! But you all live far away so I got to enjoy him all by myself!

I don't have to tell any of you that I  completely gorged myself on delicious food and weighed the next day had a wonderful time! It was great. -contented sigh-

I am back to reality now. But that's ok...because I have next year to look forward to spending some alone time with my husband and being "free" for just a few hours. So until then...I'll recharge the batteries with rendezvous to the grocery store...

alone :)

what is wrong with me?

So the cutest thing has happened in the last couple of days. Baby C has started sucking his thumb! Neither of the other two have done this. They have been binky babies. We have tried and tried to get baby C to take a binky, on numerous occasions, to no avail. Then on Sunday, at church, we had a break through! The little dude found his thumb! And since that day he has become better and better at finding it and sticking it in his mouth. 

Awesome right?

I wish I could say it was awesome. I mean, it is, really...but I feel so...left out now. Instead of being inconsolable, he is self soothing. It certainly makes for fabulous full nights rest, but I feel like I've been replaced. You pair thumb sucking and my decision to quit nursing...and I am a walking guilt trip! I seriously think he has some animosity towards me now. It's his eyes. And the fact that this morning he didn't look at me once while I was feeding him. I'm mortally wounded!

I will survive the distant stares, and quiet sucking of the thumb that is so utterly adorable and the cause of wounding to my soul...

But only because he is so stinkin cute! It must be the extra sleep I'm getting now that has let my brain function on more than 2 cylinders :) 

Go to my Flickr people...I put up some way cute pictures of the kids that I took within this week. And I want a comment telling me you've seen them! So go...now!

Please, step into my Office

I'm in love. No really. It's true. And the thing is...it's with someone other than my husband! Shameful I know. Who, do you ask, has stolen the affections that should only be held by Matt? 

This man:

His name: Michael Scott.

And this man:

Dwight Schrute.

And...I'm even in love with another couple.

Meet Pam and Jim.

The Office has a special place in my heart. When Matt first started traveling for his work (Hawaii) he would come home for a week. And what do you do when you have a whole week of nothing to do but loving your spouse? You find a tv show that you can both snuggle up to in bed, with a dvd player, and waste away your afternoon watching.

Seriously....I have never enjoyed watching a show more than I have this one because Matt and I really did this together. It had his whole attention. And if you know my hubs at all, you know this in and of itself, is a daunting task! So we watch the Office...still. No, we don't have every season on dvd. Which makes netflix...awesome. Like ridiculously awesome!

At the end of a day filled with temper tantrums, dirty diapers, drained boobs, and lost brain cells...I know all is well when the hubs and I crawl into bed, turn on the Ipad, and watch the Office. It's the little things that make my world go round.

What about you? Any special routines or shared interests that you know you couldn't live without? I'd love to know!

lackluster at best

I find myself wondering why I started writing on this stupid blog again when facebook is much more appealing to me. I don't feel competition of pressure from it. Lol. Jen and I quit writing on here roughly the same time. Me, because I didn't have the "following" that is wanted from blogging in the blogworld. Jen did...and I had a big inner struggle with why she actually has this following, and I think I still struggle, but I know its retarded. I think she stopped because,partly, of the struggle I was having. She tries to make nice with me because most of the time she is a nice person;) And she knew that I was being psycho:P

But here we are again. I moved up to Alaska and thought I would start writing again to keep those, who wanted to know, up with what's going on; and I find myself hating it. I'm boring. I'm not a creative writer in the least. I sucked at in school and it still burdens me. And I look at hers and even Stacie's blog and they write in a way that grabs your attention. And it bothers me! lol.  So what do I do? Continue to write the mundane things that are going on around me? Try to make them seem more exciting? Or maybe I still need to work on getting my head out of my butt?

Too much information

So I have really been trying to figure out what it is that attracts people to others blogs. I think I have come up with the answer....lots of personal thoughts and feelings. I can't expect people to hang around and read my bring mundane life, if all I do is write about the really boring and mundane things. I've come across blogs of women that really are no different than me. They have kids, religion, and a computer. So why do they all have "followers" and dozens of "comments"? Because they blog like they are writing in their journal. I'm not sure I will be able to accomplish that since my journal really isn't all that detailed either. Kind of a problem. There are all sorts of things that happen on a daily basis in my life. Either the kids are making me want a stiff shot of Jack, or they are being the cutest little shmoopsie poos, or being dorks!  Some days I get lost in my thoughts of this really being my life and others I bawl while trying to sing primary songs in the car with B. SO...I just need to write about them. Hopefully this will help me see myself as someone of interest. Please don't ask how me wanting other people to "follow" and leave "comments" will make me feel good:) It's just one of those things I guess.

Monday funday....

This is what I am doing today...cleaning...yay.


That's about the excitement I've got. Oh and Dr's appt on Wednesday. I get to have my butt played with...please please...don't be jealous:) It's my GBT test. She also mentioned something about "checking" me too. So I guess this is it....let the awesome invading of the personal space begin:) I know...by the time I have the baby I won't care...and I agree. But it still takes some getting used to of having a Dr stick her hand in, a little too far, of a place it doesn't belong:) Lol...I'm glad this post is s personal today:) So other than that...I'm not sure what else the week holds. My MIL said something about me having to help pick blackberries this week. Theya ren't quite ready yet...but should be soon. Ok. Enough talking and wasting precious cleaning time:) Till then,

Meg

Tagged eh?...disclaimer.....5 things you may not know

OK...so I was going through my answers in my head last night, and realized that the one about kids sounded like I don't want kids, so I need to clairfy that. When I was in school I was never going to get married or have kids. I had a health class where you had to take a fake baby home and I refused to do it. I did a different assignmenet instead. LOL. I still almost failed the class :) So just so I'm clear, I can't see myself not having kids now:)




5 Things on my To Do List:

*finish a project for someone having a baby ;)
*clean my house
*put B to bed and pray he goes right to sleep :)
*read my how-to book for Corel Paint Shop Pro
*stay healthy for my pregnancy

Jobs I Have Had:

*food prep for a nursing home
*busser/kitchen help for BHOP
*sales assoc for Harley Davidson
*Wal-mart
*kennel caretaker at an animal shelter

5 Places I have lived:

*Alexandria, NH
*Hebron, NH
*Concord, NH
*North Ogden, UT
*Harrisville, UT

5 Favorite Snacks:

*PB and Fluff graham crackers
*icecream
*cereal
*oreos
*FRIES!!!!

5 Things you May Not Know About Me:

*I have low self confidence
*I thought kids weren't for me
*I think about my parents getting back together
*I'm pretty sure I am slightly OCD
*I volunteer for ESRA, and most of the time dogs irritate me...lol

5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire

*Pay off all our debts
*Set aside a plan for retirement
*get lipo after having 6 six kids :)
*pay off my parents debt
*buy a farm with LOTS of horses

Things I love:

*my family
*B
*my freckles
*FRIES
*being a stay at home mom

Maybe Amy and I should get to know eachother...

You Are An INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow. You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation. At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?